(Editor’s Note – Almost halfway through 2019, this author takes a look at how her New Year’s resolutions are holding up.)
I have never been much for resolutions, but this year was different. In addition to being a photographer, I was given the opportunity to be a stay-at-home mom. So this year, I have all year to truly focus on staying on the path of self-improvement, and boy, do I have a lot of things to improve on.
I’m working on self-love. I am very hard on myself. I judge myself against others and only see how I don’t measure up. I look at other moms and think how much better they are doing than I am when honestly, it’s just not true. Although they are doing a wonderful job, I am, too, and I never allow myself to see it. I look at how I am not as accomplished or as thin and my house isn’t as spotless as theirs.
I want to view things differently and get perspective. I am a great mom. I love my kids and make it my mission to ensure that they know they are loved and feel loved every single day. I make sure they have manners and are taken care of properly. I may do things differently and possibly in an unconventional way, but I get the job done and I need to appreciate that more.
I’m working on my body so I can love myself on the outside as much as I am working to love myself on the inside.
I’m working on taking my kids out more. With my husband working out of town often, the kids and I spend most days at home. Truth be told, I get a little nervous that I won’t be able to handle or keep an eye on both of them, so I stay at home where it is safe. But I want to take them places and experience things with them more. I want to do all kinds of fun things with my little ones because they deserve a mom who spends more time with them than just being at home watching cartoons and playing toys with them.
I’m working toward finishing my degree so I can help my husband financially. I take care of the kids, but it has to be stressful to be the only source of income. I can’t imagine the stress that must put on him. I want to work but most importantly, I want to help him and help make a better and more financially comfortable life for our family.
I’m working on being more patient. I try to be cheerful but with two wild littles, but I can lose my patience from time to time. I feel like my other resolutions might be a little more attainable than this one, but hopefully, if I am able to achieve my other goals, I will be able to be a happier version of myself and won’t get stressed as easily.
Maybe you’re not supposed to make this many resolutions but like I said, my number 1 resolution is to keep the rest of them. Hopefully, with all of these changes, I will come out of 2019 a better mom, wife, and person.
